Thursday, October 31, 2024
Sunday, October 27, 2024
Wednesday, October 23, 2024
KEROUAC
I am on that road again
the one that was sure
he was wrong
that he was fake crazy and
masculine magic
and everything that is
anathema to a woman
like me
So, I buy the book at Strand
in a worldy questioning way
it was on the pile
under the sign
classics it said
and I was ready to
throw down the gauntlet
narrow the writer
into the stuff that
is easily dismissed
until it is not
when the crucial insanity
is not male or female
when it gets all bogged
into a bisexual damn
that the beavers of life
keep building and destroying
when the childy sorrow
of a hundred past thieves
steal the memory
of yourself
and refuse to deceive
what and who you are
why you see that far
and never regret
what you have to forget
to write what you know
in patience and anger
in still and sparkling
in lightness that darkens
he roared through me
and splintered the rickety
he wrote what I hated
he wrote what I loved
the argument endures
the hand fits the glove
9.17.14
New Mexico early 70s
MARIO’S STUDY
Friday, October 11, 2024
Tuesday, October 1, 2024
partial as she is to escape
here or there or in outer space
landscapes draw blanks on pages
she rages
when lovers go fretful in
gardens wet full of
evil poetry
tears perfected butterfly wings
slander left her feet in the race
drunk and spare
on the garden settee
partial as she is to escape
here or there or in outer space
she’ll sit on a bench
in a conservatory garden
noting seeds racing for glory
blooming like fuck in an uneasy climate
urban and starlike and owned
by those outside of her
she’s older now and wiser by none
keeps to herself
now that life has gone faster
than her
nothing more has to rhyme
partial as she is to relate
handshakes don’t remember when
she wasn’t in love
when she wasn’t disarming
in a garden so public and hidden as well
she’s thick as the hide on a sacred cow pelt
her limbs are like spiders on speed
she leans into the work counting out loud
the marvelous presence of seed
she’ll sit on a bench
in the conservatory garden
noting seeds racing for glory
bent over records she’s meant to keep
a gleaner of seeds like you and me
from well-armed consultants those fucking bastards
she bends with a dancer’s knee
full throttle ecstasy
leaving pain in the holding position
again
nyc 10.1.24
Saturday, September 21, 2024
NORTHERN LIGHTS
the cat creeps beside me
his eyes all aglow
what more do I need
what more can I know
evil is written in stone
and in snow
in rivers that rage
deserts I don’t know
urban cliff dweller am I
with the soul of a hermit
searching the light
in an alien sky
I am home with my light
my river that flows
my witness to self that
continues to grow
my desert that kills
each passing word
I live by the light of an
unknown northern night
I wonder what’s next
shall I stay shall I fly
I wonder what’s next in
my northern light
urban cliff dweller am I
with the soul of a hermit
searching the light
in an alien sky
I’ve been warned of the storms
considered regret
I wander in restless
celestial deterrent
sit at my desk
and wonder what’s next
I pound keys into stars
words land uneasily
the rest of my scars
are stories told freely
I wanted to witness
that unearthly glow
cramped as I am here
in darkness below
3.18.15
Wednesday, September 18, 2024
she’s falling away from herself
like an outgoing breath
carrying an eyelash in her purse
her ready change for an ask
small windows betray what’s been felt
when the right meets the left
querying a rehash in the room
where nothing fears of the past
she’s mauling intent to begin
a romantic reset
hovering with bees in their hive
a queenly regard for her sins
she’s on a street corner
forever a loner
armed for the wars
madness is born for
she’s fond of old captains
replacing the mourners
dump them in seas
sailed on by coroners
she’s falling away from herself
shoves her trash to the curb
with discouraging words
meant to be buried in ancient tombs
nothing is fearful past
when death moves to the curb
like a cyclone at last
and not a cruel word was heard
she’s on a street corner
forever a loner
armed for the wars
madness is born for
nyc 9.18.2
Tuesday, August 27, 2024
AGING
then her bones were
all about escape
untied choked without
clever marrow
bloated and unseemly
drinking in
a thing or two
the fiction that follows
each truthful denial
a misdirection
that craven fear of words
stoked by inflection
bigger than she
revealing the personal
angry in place
cross-eyed kittens she cries
it is time to get drowned
a moment before
she laughs out loud
when her teeth collapse
those mad fucking dancers
free with the questions
done as well with the answers
she takes stock of herself
fakes shedding a tear
it’s like fucking Gray Gardens in here
she is literally downed
by the park of reminders
wanting isn’t always doing nothing
hanging never solved a problem
crosses come and go in tandem
when her bones are all
about escape
untied and without
clever marrow
she will climb the cross again
quietened no doubt
by discomfort from the razor’s edge
she will climb the cross again
she will no longer pledge.
She will climb the cross again
waving from the edge.
6.18.19
nyc