Thursday, October 31, 2024


 

loving caregivers thrived
not in her lifetime no
they conspired against her
autonomous tribes
seeking redress in the here and now
she wanted revenge
that simpering weapon
the thing in her holster was wide-eyed
and then some
hovering underage gloves
gorm-free of his undertow
how the river defends her
blatant-filled rides
making her way through a field of cows
she wanted return
her heart fully open
rivers of lust bled the big sky
and then some
shout-worthy jokes undermined
requests for a bleaker unknown
are we ancient or grounded
surrounded by lies
stomping on things under perfect duress
there is no regress
herself well unspoken
trust although token exemplified
and then some
nyc ues 10.31.24
Man Ray

Sunday, October 27, 2024


wrapped tonight in
autumnal luster
vulgar notions of
aging creep ever closer
soft urgent crossings
in the tide below
cars full of waves
wet the road with laughter
imagine the poet
that outruns danger
the glare of the laptop
a green-shaded lamp
books stacked with abandon
daring Sisyphus to climb
the cat’s cry distracts from
a weighty mantle
night bus below
dusts off an urge to travel
the cat pulls himself
into protective sleep
whatever his night fears
the mourning dove’s keep
on the back fire escape
will return him to gentle
whatever his night fears
he’ll reject sentimental
laughter below
is it mad or cruel
the mantle slips from my
shoulders as usual
I write like the tide
it knows no refusal
no excuse
no regret
no answers
no muscle
whatever my fears
I reject sentimental
unwrapped tonight from
autumnal luster

9.28.16
nyc

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Photo: Tim Tapling Autumn [ in one shot ] : Egerton Dock : Birkenhead : Wirral : 26:Oct:2024.

 

Wednesday, October 23, 2024

 





KEROUAC


I am on that road again
the one that was sure
he was wrong
that he was fake crazy and
masculine magic
and everything that is
anathema to a woman
like me
So, I buy the book at Strand
in a worldy questioning way
it was on the pile
under the sign
classics it said
and I was ready to
throw down the gauntlet
narrow the writer
into the stuff that
is easily dismissed
until it is not
when the crucial insanity
is not male or female
when it gets all bogged
into a bisexual damn
that the beavers of life
keep building and destroying
when the childy sorrow
of a hundred past thieves
steal the memory
of yourself
and refuse to deceive
what and who you are
why you see that far
and never regret
what you have to forget
to write what you know
in patience and anger
in still and sparkling
in lightness that darkens
he roared through me
and splintered the rickety
he wrote what I hated
he wrote what I loved
the argument endures
the hand fits the glove

9.17.14

New Mexico early 70s

 



MARIO’S STUDY

Angry centuries on the bookshelves.
Electric sharpener filled to its grisly
death teeth with skin and bones.

He belonged to the second group; he
says he believes in the Silence of the Light.
It goes with the dust here, she says.

She flies erratically on the back of her
thoughts of waiting women to
the velvet tongue across turned wood,

to settle like wine on the evening
shadows, to relieve a bloodless
tension, to say why care?

When an aching distant throat jumped
into her goblet and cried, as tiny as
a stillborn diamond.
Listen, it said
silence is not yet a dead subject.

3.5.76
nyc
photo: Dan Brinzac ca '76

Friday, October 11, 2024


 



knock me down 

with a feather

I dare you

my heart wears 

boxing gloves

my feet dance 

like a woman 

who knows the score

knock me down 

with a feather

don’t spare me

all the love you bring me

will just bring me more 


nyc 8.2.13


monoprint nyc

 


Tuesday, October 1, 2024

 partial as she is to escape

here or there or in outer space

landscapes draw blanks on pages

she rages 

when lovers go fretful in

gardens wet full of

evil poetry

tears perfected butterfly wings

slander left her feet in the race

drunk and spare 

on the garden settee

partial as she is to escape

here or there or in outer space

she’ll sit on a bench

in a conservatory garden

noting seeds racing for glory

blooming like fuck in an uneasy climate

urban and starlike and owned

by those outside of her

she’s older now and wiser by none

keeps to herself

now that life has gone faster

than her

nothing more has to rhyme

partial as she is to relate

handshakes don’t remember when

she wasn’t in love

when she wasn’t disarming

in a garden so public and hidden as well

she’s thick as the hide on a sacred cow pelt

her limbs are like spiders on speed

she leans into the work counting out loud

the marvelous presence of seed

she’ll sit on a bench

in the conservatory garden

noting seeds racing for glory

 

bent over records she’s meant to keep

a gleaner of seeds like you and me

from well-armed consultants those fucking bastards

she bends with a dancer’s knee

full throttle ecstasy

leaving pain in the holding position

again


nyc 10.1.24


Saturday, September 21, 2024



 NORTHERN LIGHTS 


the cat creeps beside me

his eyes all aglow

what more do I need
what more can I know

evil is written in stone
and in snow

in rivers that rage
deserts I don’t know 

urban cliff dweller am I

with the soul of a hermit

searching the light
in an alien sky
I am home with my light

my river that flows

my witness to self that

continues to grow
my desert that kills

each passing word

I live by the light of an
unknown northern night

I wonder what’s next

shall I stay shall I fly

I wonder what’s next in

my northern light

urban cliff dweller am I

with the soul of a hermit

searching the light
in an alien sky
I’ve been warned of the storms
considered regret
I wander in restless
celestial deterrent
sit at my desk
and wonder what’s next

I pound keys into stars

words land uneasily
the rest of my scars

are stories told freely
I wanted to witness
that unearthly glow

cramped as I am here

in darkness below

 

3.18.15
nyc

Photo: nyc 3.25.2019

Wednesday, September 18, 2024

 



she’s falling away from herself
like an outgoing breath
carrying an eyelash in her purse
her ready change for an ask

small windows betray what’s been felt
when the right meets the left
querying a rehash in the room
where nothing fears of the past

she’s mauling intent to begin
a romantic reset
hovering with bees in their hive
a queenly regard for her sins

she’s on a street corner
forever a loner
armed for the wars
madness is born for

she’s fond of old captains
replacing the mourners
dump them in seas
sailed on by coroners

she’s falling away from herself
shoves her trash to the curb
with discouraging words
meant to be buried in ancient tombs

nothing is fearful past
when death moves to the curb
like a cyclone at last
and not a cruel word was heard
she’s on a street corner
forever a loner
armed for the wars
madness is born for

nyc 9.18.2


Tuesday, August 27, 2024

 




AGING

 

then her bones were

all about escape

untied choked without

clever marrow

bloated and unseemly

drinking in

a thing or two 

the fiction that follows

each truthful denial

a misdirection

that craven fear of words

stoked by inflection

bigger than she

revealing the personal

angry in place

cross-eyed kittens she cries

it is time to get drowned

a moment before

she laughs out loud

when her teeth collapse

those mad fucking dancers

free with the questions

done as well with the answers

she takes stock of herself

fakes shedding a tear

it’s like fucking Gray Gardens in here

she is literally downed 

by the park of reminders

wanting isn’t always doing nothing

hanging never solved a problem

crosses come and go in tandem

when her bones are all

about escape

untied and without

clever marrow

she will climb the cross again

quietened no doubt

by discomfort from the razor’s edge

she will climb the cross again

she will no longer pledge.

She will climb the cross again

waving from the edge.

 

6.18.19

nyc